Hatsune Miku!

2010-02-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

~ chorus ~
Even if I'm at my limit,
even if I'm all alone
I don't want to give up;
I'm not kidding

I don’t cry anymore
I don’t cry anymore
I tell myself to be strong
So I will never ever cry

Going to sleep with a warm feeling
I thought that would continue forever

Why were the things I believed in a lie?
You should be with me at these kinds of times

I want to step forward
with my trembling feet

~ chorus ~
Even if I’m at my limit,
even if I’m all alone
I don’t want to give up;
I’m not kidding

I don’t cry anymore
I don’t cry anymore
I tell myself to be strong
So I will never ever cry

What should I believe in?
I don’t know, struggle and get lost
I want to grasp my wishes and make them come true
I entrust them to my small hands and hold on tight

Sorry,
I’m not that strong
And there are times when
I just seem to break

But if there’s just a
slight piece of hope
Then I want to keep holding on to it, forever

~ chorus ~
Even if I’m at my limit,
even if I’m all alone
I don’t want to give up;
I’m not kidding

I don’t cry anymore
I don’t cry anymore
I tell myself to be strong
So I will never ever cry

Even if I get forced and act reckless
I’ll keep on living; this isn’t the end

i don’t cry anymore~

I remember your voice

So I will never ever cry
So I will surely be able to smile someday

2010-02-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

找不到人說　心裡的寂寞

找不到人懂　怕黑的折磨

找不到命中註定　在一起的那個人

2010-01-23T08:21:00.001+08:00

The feelings I couldn’t even express in words
yet still wanted to disclose to you
I wanted to do so
From the beginning till the end
We walked the way home together
Those treasured memories
I’ll never ever forget them
~SAYONARA MEMORIES~

The feelings I couldn’t even express in words
The simple walk we had I hold so dearly in my heart
Do you remember it too?
At that time
You called out my name
Two people walking home together under the night sky
I’ll never ever forget them
~SAYONARA MEMORIES~

I’m very thankful for having ever met you

Looking back, I suddenly remember
saying [This is the person I'll fall in love with]
I wonder why so?
I really have no idea
After that, each day made me very happy
yet at the same time
it was also painful.

Somehow, I couldn’t even say [Sorry]
That’s why I, you, er
wait, I’ll say something…
But right now
~I still don’t want to say goodbye~
Being stuck as just a friend
No way… I don’t want that…
I was going to say
I…
you…
you… always…
…Always! Ever since the beginning,
I’ve always loved you!

2009-12-19T21:11:00.004+08:00

On the day that I thought this would be the last

Came a elevating start which I can talk about now

My palms which your warmth spread and my empty heart

I'm searching for the paths we walked together by connecting our hearts

I want to protect it I will protect it

Even at times we can't meet

We are becoming stronger with every passing second

We embrace with the starry sky above us

I want to keep this moment, where there is no tomorrow.

I cherish your presence, the air we share together.

Where the tenderness of your heart reaches me.

Remember the warmth, the way we embraced.

It provides the shining light, our future

As I feel your presence, the never ending sadness melts away.

Forever and ever...

I want to protect it

I will protect it

Even at times we can't meet

We are becoming stronger with every passing second.

I won't forget it how I was reborn after meeting you.

I still believe it, that's why I want to keep it all.

I want to protect it all.

Today almost faint again.

tmd... luckily didn't.

then in the end early morning very hot

i cold like... dunno what la.

i wonder whats wrong with my body nowadays.

some more i feel very cold.

stupid siaaaa....

nvm i go rest now,

Bye Bye. ;P

2009-12-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

sian.

nothing to post nowadays.

been rotting at home lately

so.....

i'm bored.

hahahha

anw.

ytd, went to JP to eat KFC.

had the cheesy meltz crap.

Omg man.

regret. =.=

worst thing that is ever created related to cheese.

suckssssss.

hahaha.

after that went around JP.

like wahhh

walked same place for twice. hahaha

after that went to jw house there play basketball.

omgggg man.

suddenly rain like crazy then stop.

nowadays the weather weird weird de.

hahaha.

2009-12-17T00:10:00.002+08:00

all right.

my right arm is covered with injury now.

LOL.

fell down while playing match.

then was practically hugging the ball when i fell.

so when i fell.

my elbow was going straight for the floor,

then the bball was at my chest when i fell,

so the impact was AMAZING. ouch.

hahaha. can feel my heart stop abit.

i mean really can feel.

now my elbow joint hurts.

and my chest hurts even more.

wthhhh.

hope the pain faster recover.

damn uncomfortable.

when i cough, chest hurts like crazy.

blehhhh. hahaha.

but still when i fell down, was damn funny.

cos was playing match so,

so when i fell.

i sat up.

cannot stand up yet, must adjust to it.

LOL.

okay so,

i heard teammate say

"THROW BEHIND THROW BEHIND!"

so i threw the bball as hard as i could.

suddenly,

BANG!

kena my junior face.

LOL.

cos he accidentally pushed me,

then he wanted to help me up,

but i didnt know so i threw the bball.

Damn Epic. hahaha.

Painful But Funny. xD

Hahaha!

i want try again, very fun!

2009-12-13T11:14:00.002+08:00

画沙 MV

午后的风摇晃枝桠抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话在对你牵挂
玩风琴就是爱瞎闹堆积着无暇
我跟着站在壁沙岸让你放不下

这风景如画院子里画沙
等最美的晚霞等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀
挑上脸挑上花有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
傻傻的还想着你滴滴答答
擦美丽的指甲喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

爱过你的风沙我也一样值得你爱
管他风怎么刮管雨就怎么下
回头过去原来别说傻
回头不说一次值得吧
我爱上这泪光问你会不会爱我

这种景如画院子里画沙
等我们的童话等誓言落下

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀
用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中的流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来全部会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀

2009-12-08T22:49:00.002+08:00

RAWR RAWR RAWR!

hahaha.

i found out one of my hobby le!

i like to talk crap. =)

hahaha.

today i told my brothers and cousin this when i was taking in the laundry from the window.

" Ehhh. Who want commit suicide one? Follow me"

then my cousin walked to the window, look down.

then i say,

"Oi Oi what you doing?"

he replied,

"jump off a building lor"

then i said,

"Cannot, if you want to jump must queue up and wait for your turn."

then they gave me that o.O face. hahaha

sooooo stupid. xD

2009-12-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

hais....
after reading our conversations when we first talked...
i felt....
Very empty...
i don't know why...
but i want to cry...
i just want to let it all out...
i'm sorry...

hey...
i know what i'm doubting about le...

2009-12-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

blehhhh...

i think i sick liao.

anyways,

i was bored in the afternoon and i downloaded 2 more internet browsers.

lol.

opera and google chrome.

didn't know why anyway.

but not bad.

trying out these two browsers.

maybe will keep using them?

hahaha.

eeeeee....

my blogger got problem

i mean posting.

walaaooooo....

2009-12-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

i wanna eat ice creammmmm~~~~
lalalala~

2009-12-03T20:04:00.002+08:00

My favourite song right now.
:D
Puppy Love by Perfume.
For those Who wanna know what it means.
there is english translation inside the video.

oh, one more thing.
*"Tsunderation".
Japanese coined word.
The act of human who is cool surface but spoilt child within.

hahaha.

anyway,
watching MVP valentine.
kind of gave me....
errr....
motivation.
hahaha.
play basketball for the freedom and fun of it.
then you could truly feel it.
same goes for any other thing we do.
if it's not the fun of it.
then don't bother doing it.
if we don't enjoy something
why force ourselves on doing something we don't enjoy doing?
xD

2009-12-02T22:39:00.002+08:00

hais...
sian.
hahaha.
Watching MVP 情人 now.
hahaha.
watch before twice only.
forgot the whole story le.
so watch again.
hahaha.
quite touching and funny also.
hahaha.
i like how they fit in the BOA's every heart.
very nice.
:D
some scenes see le.
will feel very sad wanna cry. D:
some scenes see le.
will feel very happy. :D
8 more episodes to go.
hahaha.

anyway,
today had training.
mannnn...
don't know why
run abit only,
feel very breathless.
then need so long to catch my breath.
wapiang ehh.

anyway,
I WANNA EAT SUBWAY.
EXTRA CHEESE.
WOOOOOOHOOOO.
DAMN NICE. xD
I WANT WHITE CHIP COOKIES ALSO!
RAWRRRR!
WAHAHAHAHA!

2009-12-01T17:37:00.003+08:00

rotting at home....
hahaha.
damn sian ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
at least got show to watch hahaha.
but still.
very borrrreeddddddd.....
wtf.
=.=
and....
im dam hungry nowwwwww
hahahaha.
next time i must buy alot of chips and cookies store at home
hahaha
RATIONS!
xD
then like that will grow fat. D:
hahaha.
who cares?
i wanna eat subway!
RAWRRRRR!!!

2009-11-27T21:16:00.008+08:00

I feel so neglected.
But.
i'm used to it anyway.
this was what i was afraid of.
To say the truth,
I don't like you anymore.
but still, i feel so lost...
anyway, i just want to say.
if you need anything from me.
I'll be there for you.
why?
because i'm your son :D
hahaha.

2009-11-26T18:51:00.001+08:00

沈懿 - <战舞>(电影《功夫灌篮》插曲)

你看到我就怕头皮发麻

我的求胜欲望就是那麽直接了当

你切呀! 你过啊! 有我快你就冲吧 !

你的鸡皮疙瘩落在我的四川火锅麻辣哈哈!

我的快乐就是建立在你的失败之上

你还婆婆妈妈球场就是战场打打杀杀

犯罪现场各个血气方刚铁打的

你挡得了吗? 跟你玩真的你行儿吗?

我为骄傲而打我为痛快而打

我为成功而打我为打败你而打

其他人都饱受惊吓我看你也一样

下场同他们陪葬梦想全死翘翘

你的亲朋好友脸上无光篮球生涯画上句号还垂死挣扎?

来几次都给你最正确的解答

有种的话尽管上场我会让你哭著回去找你妈妈

运动! 就是我的战斗是我的气魄

燃烧了大夥儿熊熊战火让你颤抖

胜利到手成王败寇弟兄我们往前冲打他个片甲不留

YO! BASKETBALL一定卖座有我不得不引起大规模轰动

慢动作才能看清我到底能骗对手多少个假动作

你球才刚摸就被我抄走你才刚上场就被教练冷冻

训练有素的狗就是包快包狠包准杀得你屁滚尿流

碰到我都哑口无言对刚那一球一头雾水

如果你还没感到岌岌可危那麽今天你们球队即将正式瓦解

交给我是最值得信赖歼灭你们自己的杀手

球投投进又进投再投球又投又进

我的手气永无止境每球都神来之笔

粉丝们都在视频搜寻我的经典画面点击

快可快非常快快到连方向感都错乱

活该掰掰理当应该练好再来太异想天开对付你们心目中的大腕儿

运动! 就是我的战斗是我的气魄

燃烧了大夥儿熊熊战火让你颤抖

胜利到手成王败寇弟兄我们往前冲打他个片甲不留

2009-11-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

OKAY!
seriously i dunno what to update LOL.
anyway.
2days of friendly games.
1st day against Kranji.
2 mins 3fouls liao.
PRO MAH?!?!? =3=
hahahah.
4th foul was because i rejected the ball.
most useful foul that i committed.
hahaha.

2nd day.
NABEI....
Go school happily happily
suddenly cough like siao
then went to toilet vomit.
cough until tongue numb.
=.=
then afternoon okay le.
then went to imm eat lunch
went to mac with elston and kenneth before going to gym
Wah piang eh.
Gym got alot of Huge Guys lor.
OMGGGG.
their arms at least got 8cm de diameter i think.
saw my pri school fren
dunno she rmb anot hahaha
see la.
pri school dun want exercise,
go secondary school liao then slim down.
SADDED.
hahahaha.

2009-11-23T23:44:00.002+08:00

WAHHHH sian =.=
2nd blue black on my knuckle!
=x
today training very GAN DONG!
thank you guys.
especially yee hong, yee jian, yi hong, leonard, elston and everyone who cheered me on.
Finally i saw team spirit!
OMGGGGGG....
hahaha.
but still my shooting sucks =.=
damn.
Anyone can get me a New basketball for chirstmas?
PLEASEEEEE =D
hahaha.

2009-11-21T09:29:00.003+08:00

OMGGGG....
I'm half crippled now D:
i cant walk properly,
cant stand straight, can't sit too long,
wahhhh siannnn.
haisssssss.....
then my palm got blue black also.
hopefully recover fast lu.
monday must train even harder.
idc.
must work harder from now on!
FTWWWWWWW!!!!!!! :D

2009-11-17T01:07:00.001+08:00

STUPID AHMA!
MY BLOG WHERE GOT DEAD?
=P
CURSE MY BLOG ONLY.
KNSSSSSSSSS.
TOOPID BULLY xP

2009-11-10T14:49:00.000+08:00

So I’ll go to you now, I’ve made up my mind
I want to play you the song in my pocket

I quietly turned up the volume to make sure

Oh good-bye days
I feel like things are changing now
So long yesterday and before
I have a clumsy tenderness by my side
La la la la la
~With you

I pass you one earphone
And in that moment, it plays slowly

I am, I'm loving you, right? Sometimes I get confused

Oh good-bye days
Now what’s in my heart has begun to change, alright
I have a clumsy tenderness by my side
La la la la la
~With you

I don’t want to have sad thoughts if I can help it
But they’re bound to come, right?
When they do, I’ll smile and say
"Yeah, hello!" I hope I can call you
My friend...

When we sing the same song
Be by my side, I wish
I’m glad I found that clumsy tenderness

La la la la la
...Good-bye days

2009-11-09T15:26:00.001+08:00

I want to fly well.
I think I think a little too much
In my room where I can’t sleep

I want to just run away from this night
My sighs fall onto the window

I want to fly far away
Away from the moonlight
What should I do?

I want to fly well, I want to fly well
I just don’t know how to fly...
I want to fly well, I want to fly well
I wish someone would teach me

Surely everything’s unfamiliar
Even the TV is full of lies

I keep running for shelter from the rain
I can’t go on like this
I don’t care if I get drenched

I want to fly well I want to fly well
In order to learn to fly...
I want to fly well I want to fly well
You have to get out into the sky, to skyline

I can’t wait for my chance
How many of the same old mornings
Have I counted so far, picturing the skyline

I don’t know how to fly
I don’t even know if I can fly
I want to fly well I want to fly well
But I’ll go

I want to fly well I want to fly well
In order to learn to fly...
I want to fly well I want to fly well
You have to get out into the sky, to skyline

2009-11-08T07:55:00.003+08:00

I've gave up.
Bye Bye.
I'm going to step out of your life.
Although it has been a long and tiring ride,
I've enjoyed it.
Thank You.
For being part of my life.
For being part of my memories.
I asked You Whether you have heard the phrase
One's Happiness Is Another's Sorrow.
To me it means that,
I'm willing to give up in exchange of your happiness.
You said before, is your life really that bad?
I've no answer to that.
I'm willing to give up because
even if i've gotten you, i'll never get your heart.
If you still love him, then go for it.
I wish you the best of luck.
This is my last stop.
Goodbye and take care.

2009-11-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

Stand Up Strong.
The only thing I won't throw out is my heart, even if this is the end
Memories and hope that everyone has can't be snatched away

Imagining the warmth of the times when our hands piled up
I laugh, even when it hurts
I always seem to forget all the good things that happened with one bad thing
I am becoming strong, little by little

Even if sadness that won't stand up those thoughts tries to chose me
If someone carries these past days of fate on their shoulders,
I don't want to become a person who only lives to protect themselves
I know it hurts, but I want to laugh tomorrow

News of fate is like a circulating game
Look, when you're rejected,
People struggle on the road where they suffer
Everything that is reflected in this day
Will be lost and snatched away
But only the words you gave me can't be snatched away from anyone

On the night where the light of the darkness where nobody can see disappeared
I remembered you before I slept
I'm going to search for the clouds that I saw with you tomorrow
I know it's unnecessary
But I want to advance a bit more than today

In wonderful things
And in any kind of painful thing
When we're not able to be sad about everything
Comfort is soon left behind
It feels like the hard times are longer
Passing inside the hated theory of relativity (?)

Gazing at the sky at ease
I see the clouds get lost and float away
Isn't it like me of a different time?
I'm searching for you

Let's try to not say goodbye, even if this is the end
I was chasing hope inside of myself
My "heart" can't be snatched away

Before I sleep as the day ends
I wonder if we'll be able to meet tomorrow
I know it's unnecessary
But the center of the heart which lives in love can't be snatched away from anyone
So I want to meet you, in order to meet tomorrow smiling

The clouds that have got lost flow with my sadness
I wonder if on those same clouds, there might be more people like me, piling up...

2009-11-04T17:01:00.003+08:00

It Feels Like Thousand Of Knives Piercing Through.

i'm not going to say much.
just want to say that.
i'm the root of all problems.
the troublemaker.
causing so much trouble.
Get rid of the root of everything
means problems solved.
Sorry. I'm Sorry. I'm Really Sorry.
no matter how, no matter what.
i'm going to shut up.
shut that big fat mouth.
what to do?
i so stupid~
i won't ask so much, won't say so much.

if someone was there to truly care about an ass like me.
i would be thankful and grateful.
sorry for causing so much
sorrows, misunderstandings and pain.

2009-11-03T19:32:00.001+08:00

I told myself.
"Don't keep speaking of such senseless things
And focus on following the examples of those before you"
This Is
The answer to my confession
Thank you for making up my mind.
So as not to feel ashamed
So as not to cry
When you look back
Someday
Tell yourself
That the darkness before your eyes
Is a form of sustenance
And laugh.

2009-11-02T07:43:00.002+08:00

sian. hais..
why i get so worked up sia?
haha. stupid me.
see.
i told you i'm the dumb one.
not you.
=P

Ahhhhh.
boring uh.
nth to do always =.=
someone gimme something to do lehhh.
facebook-ing sucks.
you'll see things you wouldn't want to see.
lalala.

2009-11-01T16:39:00.000+08:00

haha.
SUPER BOREDDD!
xD
i want go out lehhhhhh
someone ask me out pleasseeeeee! xD

2009-10-31T11:55:00.001+08:00

Sorry lu..
Crap la.. Why am i always doing things wrongly.
Sorry...
All i Could Say is Sorry..

2009-10-31T07:03:00.001+08:00

NEW BLOGSKIN!
NICE NICE?? xD
SIMPLICITY ROCKS! >.<
Simple-minded Is Like That uh! haha!

2009-10-30T17:48:00.001+08:00

lol. sian.
CARING PUPIL AWARD.
can you believe it?!
hahaha.
is really got ppl vote de uh!
thank you thank you. =D
haha.
anyways, i caring meh?
lol.
even if yes.
in what way? o.o
haha.

2009-10-28T20:08:00.003+08:00

CHAO JIBAI.
KNN. FK LA.
I HAD ENOUGH MAN.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
I GIVE UP.
I GIVE UP OKAY?
JIBAI.
I'M FEELING DAMN SUCKY RIGHT NOW.
DAMMIT.

i wish i had someone to talk to...
really... hais... i feel like flying again.

2009-10-28T19:15:00.002+08:00

sick. haha.
i got promise you uh!
=)

sian. i'm very bored...
blehhh...
hahahah.
don't feel like doing anything leh...
oh yar.
this few days keep getting scared easily.
don't know why.
maybe.
scared of this and that bah....
hais....
or maybe.
just paranoid?
hais....
i...
i don't know what to say lu.
i wish i can have a good laugh soon.
everything bottled up really sucks.
hais...
wish there was someone there to talk to.
someone who would really really understand.
but.
maybe.
i don't understand anything at all...
dumb dumb.
hais...

2009-10-26T09:24:00.001+08:00

Afraid Or Worried?
I don't know...
Aw man..
Why Are things so complicated?
Hais...

2009-10-25T08:51:00.008+08:00

It's my fault, it's my fault, it's all my fault.

why am i the one who fell for you?
why?
why am i so stupid?
where did i even find the courage to tell you that
"I love you / I like you".
if i haven't say all that maybe you won't avoid me.
then we could still have been friends and talk normally.
But now,
Everything's Crushed.
Heh, I'm so useless.
Not able to put everything back to how it was.
I don't know why i'm so troubled by all this things.
I really don't know.
Sometimes i really wish that we could really talk things out.
but the fact is that.
I'm afraid of you.
I'm really afraid...
Everything happens all just too fast.
I don't know why i'm saying all this.
Maybe i'm just too sensitive.
or maybe i'm just plain stupid.
But i want every tear that i shed for you to be worth it.
Thats why, i'm running away now.
I want you to be happy always.
Really really happy.
Because, without me you will live much better and even happier.

I really wish that.
We could be like how we were.

Take Good Care Of Yourself 傻瓜...

Words are just for show.
But i wish this would really make an impact on you.
pfft, me and my wilful thinking.
i'm currently both emotionally and mentally unstable.
please do not disturb. thank you.

2009-10-24T20:19:00.003+08:00

54days.
10days.
if today was counted that would make it 11.

maybe, i'm just trying to run away again.
hais... i'm mixed up now.
blehhhhh... splitting headache now.

I can smile, I hide my feelings and turn them into tears
You and me, I don't know what to do, it's my fault for sure
Rescue me, I just can't say it, I close my eyes and fall asleep
Take Good Care Of Yourself Uh. :)

Desmond,
Rest more la.
You sick until like that liao.
Shivering still say you okay. =.=

2009-10-22T15:29:00.002+08:00

today i very saddddddddddddddddddd.
=P
what to do?
cry lor.
stupid~~~~~

facebook the thingy gave me this.
Loved you once, you loved me not, I love you twice but I forgot. You never loved me and you never will.
so damn true la ._.
hahahahahahaha~~~~
lalalala

2009-10-18T21:22:00.004+08:00

i wanna fly~~~
in the vast blue sky :)

haha. i'm boreddddd.
very boredddd.
lol xP

okay okay
i've came up with 3 weird questions.
lets see whether you all have the same answer.
haha.

1. What is one of the easiest ship to build but difficult to conquer?
2.The most complicated ship ever.
3.The easiest of the easiest ship to build.

p.s. they're not really ship uh ._.

2009-10-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

hais.... i feel like giving up on everything...
it's like a roller coaster ride
but the only thing is it makes you sink even deeper.
i want to give up.
hais...
why am i still hanging on?
just let go.
i want everything to be right...
what's the point anyway.
"making" people happy
i end up being sad
wth? why always end up like that?
sian la.
failure is failure.
no other things to describe.
i'm worst then a parasite.
guess that what they say is right.
" if i were you i rather jump from a building than humiliate myself"
maybe. someday. that might happen.
i've already given up hope.
whats there to look forward to?
more pain and suffering?
why am i feeling all this?

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

i guess.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
this doesn't lies in me.
a failure is a failure
there's no turning back no matter what.

2009-10-15T18:31:00.005+08:00

i'm tired...
very tired...
i want to sleep again.
i hope all this ends soon.
hah....
who am i kidding?
stop running away.
it's getting harder to breathe.
i hate this.
stupid shit.
hais....

do you know how it is to be lonely?
i hate it.
i long for a day where i would be free
really free.
free from anything.
but now, i can only wait.
i hate it.
i hate myself.
i hate my heart.
i hate having such a troubled life.
i want freedom.
i want to soar the vast blue sky.
i want to see you...
i want to be able to watch over you.
i don't want to live a life full of regrets and sorrow.
hais...
why am i saying all this?
fuck.

2009-10-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

The weakness I'm frightened
I don't know how to stop them

The sadness you're suffered
What I see in your face

It's over I'm sleeping
This is the place I'll be

But I won't forget you
Even though I won't be here

I'm alone. I cannot move. I am hounded down
When I wish for a miracle

Every time I remember the face that I've been seeing
My memories are falling into pieces

I know that it's killing and breaking my heart to none
And the end is coming soon

2009-10-13T17:33:00.001+08:00

Blehhhhh
Why i always see got people viewing
But no tags one?!
o.o
WTTFF~~~~~~

Thank You So Very Much
I wish it stays this way.

2009-10-11T22:10:00.003+08:00

Thank You For Everything.
Am I winning or losing?

Am I right or wrong?

I don’t want these hands to forget what you taught me, one by one

You took it all, gently, like the relaxed and flowing wind

Truth is, I was really scared, and I wanted to run away

Inside the inside of my heart, the real me has been locked up

Although I'll still pretend to be tough, and still build up a barrier

I'm struggling with the pain

You were there, in the good times and bad times

Thank You For Everything You Taught Me.
You Were A Great Friend,
A Great Mummy.
Thank You.

2009-10-10T08:20:00.002+08:00

Who is Him?
who is him? that you're afriad of losing?
hais...
i'll won't ask too much anymore...
i just wanna know what made you did this choice...
hais...

Whats Your Greatest Fear...?
my greatest fear is not having to be with someone,
but it is, not having to be able to get along with someone,
i want to set things right.
your decision made an impact on me,
i'll do even better or i'll sink even deeper than i know.
Thank You...

2009-10-08T17:34:00.005+08:00

Why can't we go back to how we were? Like last time?

I never thought that a day like this would come.
where we would finally be strangers...
i wished this is all i nightmare.
i hope it'll would be better after i wake up...
everytime i think about it.
i would keep asking myself
what have i done wrong?
but...
no matter how much i ask myself
i can't find an answer...
when i asked you.
what do you cherish most?
you told me.
friendship. especially true friends.
and everytime i remember this i would begin to cry.
do you really mean it when you said that?
or were you making things up?
i really don't know anything anymore....
i've think too much about this problem
and i'm starting to go crazy over it
every night i would be thinking why?
why do you want to do this to me?
i would have a terrible headache and feel like just smashing my head into the wall.
but.
is it worth it?
even if i smashed my head into the wall
would you be my friend?
if that was to happen i'll be glad to do it.
but all i want now is that.
i want us to be friends again.
whenever i see that you're happy
i would think.
oh, you're happier without me...
what a fool i was....
trying to make myself useful...
i really hate your decision....
it hurts me more than anything else...
i really really want to get back to how it was before...
please...
why must you be so ruthless?
i guess...
i miss you too much...
can we get back to how it was before all this happened?

today english compo question i chose mistakes.
i also don't know why i chose it.
i just feel like writing everything that's in my heart down.
letting such a great friend go was my biggest mistake...
i wish i could correct this mistake.
and not let it happen again...
i hate to lose you.
i hate to lose a friend.
i hate to lose a mum.
i hate to lose a family.
i hate to don't belive in you.
i really hope all this is just a dream...
every night i would cry on and on...
i don't know why i'll cry but
i wish you would be there for me when i need you.
as a great friend,
as a great mummy,
who once used to be...

2009-10-06T17:56:00.003+08:00

from now on,
this blog is dead.
as well as me...

if it makes you feel better.
then...
hais...

2009-10-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

i don't want to leave any memories behind.

2009-10-03T07:39:00.003+08:00

Almost not settling it with words, I had irrational anxiety
Passing that, I had strength in my heart
You were there, in the good times and bad times
While I put up with the fact that “tears are only good when they are over”

I don’t want these hands to forget what you taught me, one by one
Someday, I want to make that pass over for someone else in the same way
Until I can walk on this road which can’t speak of fun or comfort

Am I winning or losing?
Am I right or wrong?
Do I even have talent??
In times like that, you were always there, in pain that seemed the same
As you laughed, “I wonder you really are”

You took it all, gently, like the relaxed and flowing wind
Truth is, I was really scared, and I wanted to run away
But even in words like those, I gained strength from being wrapped up, and the road was lit up

I almost thought I would never be able to do all this
Even though I had practiced to that point,
My feet were scared…

We ran on this lonely, painful road together
Truth is, I was really scared, and I wanted to run away
But even in an abyss of such thoughts, I always felt you at my side
Until the end of ends

Inside the inside of my heart, the real me has been locked up
Although I'll still pretend to be tough, and still build up a barrier
I'm struggling with the pain

Even though it would be so great if I could say that these are painful times
We're just laughing cowards pretending to be strong
Even though I'm lonely, I'm pretending like it doesn't bother me at all

I want you to love me, but i don't think you will
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I'm scared, even if I'm hurt
I can say 'I love you' to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it's already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That's right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There's something that I must tell you
I want you to love me, but I don't think you will
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I'm scared
Even if I'm hurt, I can say 'I love you' to the person who I love
It's scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say 'I love you' to the person who I love

2009-10-01T00:11:00.001+08:00

wahhhhhh....
i'm such a useless asshole =.=
i can only see you getting hurt.
i cant even resolve anything..
let alone console you.
dammit...
why am i so useless in this kind of situation?
hais....
=(

2009-09-27T18:42:00.004+08:00

booooo....
i'm a loser waiting for you for you to notice me~
while i wait my hair turned white.
years pass and finally,
i've turn into an old man.
but still you have not notice me.
thats why i want to give up now...
yea....
i don't know..
i don't know anymore...
i don't know why i'm still can't get over you...
i don't know why i'm fighting a losing battle...
i don't know...
not anymore...

2009-09-27T08:46:00.000+08:00

Okay...
New Skin..
go ahead and comment.
i don't mind. =x

like this skin better than the old one.
old one so plain =.=
updating in progress
i also don't know what to update ._.

Happy Birthday Ahgong And Ahma!
yar. happy birthday i also don't know what to say =3=
Happy birthday lor. =x

sian.
bored.

2009-09-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

sian....
don't know why.
nowadays keep having that kind of crappy feeling
haiz...
tmr ahma and ahgong birthday...
Bored la.
No Need trouble so much anyway.
i also never buy presents. =x

i want to be forgotten.
i don't want to exist.
i want to be gone...
i don't know what can i do...
i'm sorry...
ily.

2009-09-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

I'm Sorry....

I'm sorry...
I'm very sorry...
I Don't Want to leave you but i had no choice...
I was very dumb to choose it to end it this way...
I guess i'm too sensitive to such things...
I Don't want you to be hurt...
I don't want to end it this way...
But I....
I'm just a worthless piece of shit...
I'm Sorry For Making this decision...
I just want you to be better...
I want you to be happy every single day...
Even Without me around...
Goodbye And Take Good Care of Yourself...

I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry...
I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry...
I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry...
I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry...
I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry.... I'm Sorry...

I don't want it to end this way....
I'm sorry...

2009-09-21T11:48:00.000+08:00

Mummy!
Don't Keep Saying Bad Things About Yourself!
Cheer Up!
;D

2009-09-20T18:50:00.001+08:00

hi aliens...
lol
wasn't feelin very well this weeks..
down with flu and sore throat. lol
but who cares? =P
Sleep And Sleep And Sleep only.
haha.

Yan nacchau keredo
ii koto ga an no mo jinsei
Sou yatte tsuzukenda
Baby Never mind Never say die

who knows what the above sentence means i treat the person ice cream!
Really! No Bluff!

2009-09-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

LOL. I'm Studying Now.
Can You Believe It?
HAHA.
My Mummy Tell me study for two hours.
So I must study from 3.16 to 5.16pm!
WAHHH....

i feel so lonely...
haiz...
=(

2009-09-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

sian... sprained my bloody ankle =3=
Fuck la... How?
这么办？看着办 lor.
tmr most probably won't be playing anyway.
Who cares?

Sian... Nowadays Fucking Moody...
Haiz.... Sian la....
I Can Happy Then Suddenly Angry.
Mood Swing Lo~
Sian.. Haiz....Life Fucked Up...

2009-09-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

YO! haha.
I'm freaking bored now lol.
siannnnn =/

Walao.... I not Bad Person Okay!
Si JunWang! Pang Seh ME!
=(
Lalala~
Who Knows What Does Aishiteru Means?!
HAHA.

2009-09-13T08:27:00.000+08:00

Emotional Downtime
Damn it. Been Feeling Emotional Lately. WHY?! >.<
Ah... Crap...
I'm Having A Sore Throat and a freaking flu now.
stupid BBQ should have stayed home instead.
BORED FUCK.... >.<

You Make me Happy,Sad,Angry
We Promised.
But... Damn it...
I'm Sorry...
I've Gave My word that it must not be true
so, I'll do it.
I feel So Stupid....
Sorry...

2009-09-12T09:05:00.000+08:00

Guilty.

Don't Say Sorry Le.
Will Make Me Feel Bad And Guilty.

罪深さが募る苛立深まる僕らの愛の形
But Baby I miss you & I just want you
やりきれない気持ちを抑制中
着信履歴に残っている君の名前をも消せないでいる
このローテーション落ちてくテンション
悲しいlove song on & on & on

2009-09-05T08:50:00.000+08:00

itsumo doori no aru hi no koto
kimi wa totsuzen tachiagari itta
“konya hoshi wo mi ni yukou”

“tama ni wa ii koto iunda ne”
nante minna shite itta waratta
akari mo nai michi wo
BAKA mitai ni hashaide aruita
kakaekonda kodoku ya fuan ni
oshibusarenai you ni

makkurana sekai kara miageta
yozora wa hoshi ga furu you de

itsukara darou kimi no koto wo
oikakeru watashi ga ita
dou ka onegai
odorokanai de kiite yo
watashi no kono omoi wo

“are ga DENEBU, ARUTAIRU, BEGA”
kimi wa yubisasu natsu no daisankaku
oboete sora wo miru
yatto mitsuketa orihime-sama
dakedo doko darou hikoboshi-sama
kore ja hitoribocchi

tanoshigena hitotsu tonari no kimi
watashi wa nani mo ienakute

hontou wa zutto kimi no koto wo
doko ka de wakatteita
mitsukattatte
todoki wa shinai
dame da yo nakanai de
sou iikikaseta

tsuyogaru watashi wa okubyou de
kyoumi ga nai youna furi wo shiteita
dakedo
mune wo sasu itami wa mashiteku
aa sou ka suki ni narutte
kouiu koto nanda ne

doushitai? itte goran
kokoro no koe ga suru
kimi no tonari ga ii
shinjitsu wa zankoku da

iwanakatta
ienakatta
nidoto modorenai

ano natsu no hi
kirameku hoshi
ima demo omoidaseru yo
waratta kao mo
okotta kao mo
daisuki deshita
okashii yo ne
wakatteta no ni
kimi no shiranai
watashi dake no himitsu
yoru wo koete
tooi omoide no kimi ga
yubi wo sasu
mujakina koe de

On a day like any other
You suddenly started saying,
“Tonight, let’s go stargazing.”

“You say some good things every now and then”
Everyone said, laughing
On a road without lights,
We merrily walked along like idiots
And held our solitude and insecurity
So that it couldn’t be crushed

From the pitch black world, I looked up
Stars are falling in the night sky

I wonder how long the me
That’s chasing you has been here
Please, try not
To be surprised; listen to
These feelings of mine

“There’re Deneb, Altair, and Vega.”
You point them out in the Summer Triangle
I look at the sky and remember
I finally found Orihime-sama
But I wonder where Hikoboshi-sama is
Well, this is pretty lonely

The cheerful one next to you…
I can’t say anything

The truth is, I somehow
Always understood you
I found out
That I’ll never reach you
That’s no good; stop crying
I should have said something like that

Trying to act strong, I cowardly
I pretended like I had no interests
But
The pain stabbing my chest is growing
Now it makes sense; I’ve fallen in love
I’m sure it’s something like this

What do I want to do? Please say something
My heart’s voice calls out
Being next to you is nice
Reality is cruel

I didn’t say anything
I couldn’t say anything
I can never go back again

That summer day
Sparkling stars
I remember even now
Your laughing face, too
Your annoyed face, too
I loved them
It’s weird
Even though I knew,
It was unknown to you
My only secret
Crossing over the night
The you of my distant memories
Points your finger
With an innocent voice

2009-08-29T19:54:00.000+08:00

‘There will naturally be times when we are down as long as life goes on’
Crying in the weak rays of sunlight which embrace me
Smiling while standing in the wind which always shows me the way

When the season of blooming sunflowers arrive
I’ll go to meet you, I’ll go to meet you
I am able to become gentle

Can that sea still be viewed from the window?
Everybody, everybody, are you all doing fine?
I cannot always be crying

After peaceful times challenges will arise again
Thinking such thoughts is agonizing
The memories which lay still cry
I wish to leave them as they are
Hearing the sound of the waves

Running around the sandy beach barefooted
So happy, so enjoyable
Humming along a song
Do you gaze at the sky of your hometown?
I had forgotten, I had forgotten
I cannot always be crying

I can’t move forward if I always want everything
I know that too
It's just that the future I envisioned back then had been brighter

When the season of blooming sunflowers arrive
I’ll go to meet you, I’ll go to meet you
I am able to become gentle

Can that sea still be viewed from the window?
Everybody, everybody, are you all doing fine?
I cannot always be crying

Thank you always
oh my Sea

YUI-Lover Forum

Love This Song.
Never Give Up When You're Down In Life.

2009-08-17T08:21:00.000+08:00

YOYO!
Now At Home....
ALONE!
Nothing To Do...
Bored....
Really...
Boredom Can Kill LOL =x

2009-08-16T09:05:00.000+08:00

okay.
didn't post this few day
due to high fever.
tmd..
yesterday night temperature went down
then now temperature went up again
Bored...
Mum Say If Tmr Still not okay go see doctor liao
Dammit la.
i don't want to fall sick.
Stupid fever virus!
Damn.
Second Time This Year Liao
=(

2009-08-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

Ahh. Wth Man.
My Blogger Got Problem O.o
Lol. haha who cares?
Anyway, Stayed Home Today.
Then Today Relatives Say Grandmother Condition Worsened
Then I Dunno What To Say la
All I Have To Say is
Retribution.
O.o
I Mean Like She Did Alot Of Things So....
Yar.
That's Why =x

2009-08-09T09:19:00.000+08:00

Wahhhh.....
National Day already
Time Fly So Fast =x

okay....
Yesterday Went To Cut Hair After That "Bus-ed" Down To Grandma's House
Was Playing Psp Then Suddenly
Phone Rang. Then See Yi Zhao
I Was Like "Wtf Will He Call Me For?"
Then I Answer kenneth Said
"Bin Xiu, Want Go Yi Zhao House Eat Buffet Anot?"
Then I Was Like
Er..... Okay?
lol
After Rushed Down To Toh Guan
Then Yi Zhao And kenneth was like sitting next to the door lol.
Then After I Reached Yi Zhao Mum Was Like
"Eat More Eat More, You Bigger And Taller So Must Help Us Eat More"
Then I Was Like
"oh Shit La.... Must Go Gym More"
After That Jun Wang Arrived
He Keep Taking The Fried Chicken Like Ard 6 Of it? lol
After That Elston Came From kallang
Kenneth was like
"I Call Elston Say Got Food He Very Steady Come Down From Kallang"
after that me and jun wang keep eating
then watch dunno what movie. Dunno The Name.
Stayed For Around 2 hours Or So.
Then Elston Took MRT home
Me, JunWang And kenneth Took bus 99
me and kenneth went home
Jun Wang Went To A Temple For Dinner
Then After That Nothing Happen Le Lor.
Lol
Hopefully Monday Can Go Out Watch Movie With Them Lol =x

2009-08-08T10:18:00.000+08:00

People!
New Blog
Relink Please!
http://vo-ca-loid.blogspot.com/
Put Ur Link Down If You Wan.
Still An Empty Blog.