Sorry lu..
Crap la.. Why am i always doing things wrongly.
Sorry...
All i Could Say is Sorry..

NEW BLOGSKIN!
NICE NICE?? xD
SIMPLICITY ROCKS! >.<
Simple-minded Is Like That uh! haha!

lol. sian.
CARING PUPIL AWARD.
can you believe it?!
hahaha.
is really got ppl vote de uh!
thank you thank you. =D
haha.
anyways, i caring meh?
lol.
even if yes.
in what way? o.o
haha.

CHAO JIBAI.
KNN. FK LA.
I HAD ENOUGH MAN.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
I GIVE UP.
I GIVE UP OKAY?
JIBAI.
I'M FEELING DAMN SUCKY RIGHT NOW.
DAMMIT.


i wish i had someone to talk to...
really... hais... i feel like flying again.

sick. haha.
i got promise you uh!
=)

sian. i'm very bored...
blehhh...
hahahah.
don't feel like doing anything leh...
oh yar.
this few days keep getting scared easily.
don't know why.
maybe.
scared of this and that bah....
hais....
or maybe.
just paranoid?
hais....
i...
i don't know what to say lu.
i wish i can have a good laugh soon.
everything bottled up really sucks.
hais...
wish there was someone there to talk to.
someone who would really really understand.
but.
maybe.
i don't understand anything at all...
dumb dumb.
hais...

Afraid Or Worried?
I don't know...
Aw man..
Why Are things so complicated?
Hais...

It's my fault, it's my fault, it's all my fault.

why am i the one who fell for you?
why?
why am i so stupid?
where did i even find the courage to tell you that
"I love you / I like you".
if i haven't say all that maybe you won't avoid me.
then we could still have been friends and talk normally.
But now,
Everything's Crushed.
Heh, I'm so useless.
Not able to put everything back to how it was.
I don't know why i'm so troubled by all this things.
I really don't know.
Sometimes i really wish that we could really talk things out.
but the fact is that.
I'm afraid of you.
I'm really afraid...
Everything happens all just too fast.
I don't know why i'm saying all this.
Maybe i'm just too sensitive.
or maybe i'm just plain stupid.
But i want every tear that i shed for you to be worth it.
Thats why, i'm running away now.
I want you to be happy always.
Really really happy.
Because, without me you will live much better and even happier.

I really wish that.
We could be like how we were.

Take Good Care Of Yourself 傻瓜...

Words are just for show.
But i wish this would really make an impact on you.
pfft, me and my wilful thinking.
i'm currently both emotionally and mentally unstable.
please do not disturb. thank you.

54days.
10days.
if today was counted that would make it 11.

maybe, i'm just trying to run away again.
hais... i'm mixed up now.
blehhhhh... splitting headache now.

I can smile, I hide my feelings and turn them into tears
You and me, I don't know what to do, it's my fault for sure
Rescue me, I just can't say it, I close my eyes and fall asleep
Take Good Care Of Yourself Uh. :)

Desmond,
Rest more la.
You sick until like that liao.
Shivering still say you okay. =.=

today i very saddddddddddddddddddd.
=P
what to do?
cry lor.
stupid~~~~~

facebook the thingy gave me this.
Loved you once, you loved me not, I love you twice but I forgot. You never loved me and you never will.
so damn true la ._.
hahahahahahaha~~~~
lalalala

haha. i'm boreddddd.
very boredddd.
lol xP

okay okay
i've came up with 3 weird questions.
lets see whether you all have the same answer.
haha.

1. What is one of the easiest ship to build but difficult to conquer?
2.The most complicated ship ever.
3.The easiest of the easiest ship to build.

p.s. they're not really ship uh ._.

hais.... i feel like giving up on everything...
it's like a roller coaster ride
but the only thing is it makes you sink even deeper.
i want to give up.
hais...
why am i still hanging on?
just let go.
i want everything to be right...
what's the point anyway.
"making" people happy
i end up being sad
wth? why always end up like that?
sian la.
failure is failure.
no other things to describe.
i'm worst then a parasite.
guess that what they say is right.
" if i were you i rather jump from a building than humiliate myself"
maybe. someday. that might happen.
i've already given up hope.
whats there to look forward to?
more pain and suffering?
why am i feeling all this?

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

i guess.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
this doesn't lies in me.
a failure is a failure
there's no turning back no matter what.

i'm tired...
very tired...
i want to sleep again.
i hope all this ends soon.
hah....
who am i kidding?
stop running away.
it's getting harder to breathe.
i hate this.
stupid shit.
hais....


do you know how it is to be lonely?
i hate it.
i long for a day where i would be free
really free.
free from anything.
but now, i can only wait.
i hate it.
i hate myself.
i hate my heart.
i hate having such a troubled life.
i want freedom.
i want to soar the vast blue sky.
i want to see you...
i want to be able to watch over you.
i don't want to live a life full of regrets and sorrow.
hais...
why am i saying all this?
fuck.

The weakness I'm frightened
I don't know how to stop them

The sadness you're suffered
What I see in your face

It's over I'm sleeping
This is the place I'll be

But I won't forget you
Even though I won't be here

I'm alone. I cannot move. I am hounded down
When I wish for a miracle

Every time I remember the face that I've been seeing
My memories are falling into pieces

I know that it's killing and breaking my heart to none
And the end is coming soon

Blehhhhh
Why i always see got people viewing
But no tags one?!
o.o
WTTFF~~~~~~

Thank You So Very Much
I wish it stays this way.

Thank You For Everything.
Am I winning or losing?

Am I right or wrong?

I don’t want these hands to forget what you taught me, one by one

You took it all, gently, like the relaxed and flowing wind

Truth is, I was really scared, and I wanted to run away

Inside the inside of my heart, the real me has been locked up

Although I'll still pretend to be tough, and still build up a barrier

I'm struggling with the pain

You were there, in the good times and bad times

Thank You For Everything You Taught Me.
You Were A Great Friend,
A Great Mummy.
Thank You.

Who is Him?
who is him? that you're afriad of losing?
hais...
i'll won't ask too much anymore...
i just wanna know what made you did this choice...
hais...

Whats Your Greatest Fear...?
my greatest fear is not having to be with someone,
but it is, not having to be able to get along with someone,
i want to set things right.
your decision made an impact on me,
i'll do even better or i'll sink even deeper than i know.
Thank You...

Why can't we go back to how we were? Like last time?

I never thought that a day like this would come.
where we would finally be strangers...
i wished this is all i nightmare.
i hope it'll would be better after i wake up...
everytime i think about it.
i would keep asking myself
what have i done wrong?
but...
no matter how much i ask myself
i can't find an answer...
when i asked you.
what do you cherish most?
you told me.
friendship. especially true friends.
and everytime i remember this i would begin to cry.
do you really mean it when you said that?
or were you making things up?
i really don't know anything anymore....
i've think too much about this problem
and i'm starting to go crazy over it
every night i would be thinking why?
why do you want to do this to me?
i would have a terrible headache and feel like just smashing my head into the wall.
but.
is it worth it?
even if i smashed my head into the wall
would you be my friend?
if that was to happen i'll be glad to do it.
but all i want now is that.
i want us to be friends again.
whenever i see that you're happy
i would think.
oh, you're happier without me...
what a fool i was....
trying to make myself useful...
i really hate your decision....
it hurts me more than anything else...
i really really want to get back to how it was before...
please...
why must you be so ruthless?
i guess...
i miss you too much...
can we get back to how it was before all this happened?




today english compo question i chose mistakes.
i also don't know why i chose it.
i just feel like writing everything that's in my heart down.
letting such a great friend go was my biggest mistake...
i wish i could correct this mistake.
and not let it happen again...
i hate to lose you.
i hate to lose a friend.
i hate to lose a mum.
i hate to lose a family.
i hate to don't belive in you.
i really hope all this is just a dream...
every night i would cry on and on...
i don't know why i'll cry but
i wish you would be there for me when i need you.
as a great friend,
as a great mummy,
who once used to be...

from now on,
this blog is dead.
as well as me...


if it makes you feel better.
then...
hais...

i don't want to leave any memories behind.

Almost not settling it with words, I had irrational anxiety
Passing that, I had strength in my heart
You were there, in the good times and bad times
While I put up with the fact that “tears are only good when they are over”

I don’t want these hands to forget what you taught me, one by one
Someday, I want to make that pass over for someone else in the same way
Until I can walk on this road which can’t speak of fun or comfort

Am I winning or losing?
Am I right or wrong?
Do I even have talent??
In times like that, you were always there, in pain that seemed the same
As you laughed, “I wonder you really are”

You took it all, gently, like the relaxed and flowing wind
Truth is, I was really scared, and I wanted to run away
But even in words like those, I gained strength from being wrapped up, and the road was lit up

I almost thought I would never be able to do all this
Even though I had practiced to that point,
My feet were scared…

We ran on this lonely, painful road together
Truth is, I was really scared, and I wanted to run away
But even in an abyss of such thoughts, I always felt you at my side
Until the end of ends

Inside the inside of my heart, the real me has been locked up
Although I'll still pretend to be tough, and still build up a barrier
I'm struggling with the pain

Even though it would be so great if I could say that these are painful times
We're just laughing cowards pretending to be strong
Even though I'm lonely, I'm pretending like it doesn't bother me at all

I want you to love me, but i don't think you will
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I'm scared, even if I'm hurt
I can say 'I love you' to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it's already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That's right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There's something that I must tell you
I want you to love me, but I don't think you will
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I'm scared
Even if I'm hurt, I can say 'I love you' to the person who I love
It's scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say 'I love you' to the person who I love

wahhhhhh....
i'm such a useless asshole =.=
i can only see you getting hurt.
i cant even resolve anything..
let alone console you.
dammit...
why am i so useless in this kind of situation?
hais....
=(

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